Blessings In Disguise

My life is far from anything to brag about.  In fact, one could accurately say that I have one of the most normal lives of small town America at the very least. Many days, I try to sit down at my blog and write something deep and inspiring and profound and incredible. And every time, I fail.  I end up staring at a blank type box with no profound thoughts.  The backspace key and I exemplify friendship. I do think there is something special in the ordinary, however. It is up to us to find the extra-ordinary amongst the simple moments in life. The beauty in life lies in those around us. The people in our lives are the true blessings in disguise. Let's not forget that as we go throughout our days.

sometimes

memories

            What are we to do with memories? They are there in the back of our mind, always popping up at the most random times.  A simple smell, a melody, a scene brings them back with such clarity that it takes our breath away.  They haunt us, make us laugh, make us cry, stay with us.  It seems like the memories you wish you could get rid of never seem to leave, yet the ones you strive to recall in perfect detail vanish before you can get them securely in your grasp. 

Why do our minds remember certain times and not others? And why do things always have to change? Memories are never anything like what you’re going through at the present.  People come and they go.  Time never sits still.  So, how do we grasp the time we do have? How do we grab ahold of those moments that make life wonderful and make them stay awhile?  I feel like so many people have tried so hard to solve this problem by coming up with simple phrases and ideas of living life to its fullest and taking pictures in our minds at those fleetingly beautiful moments of true life.

Some people thrive on change. I do not.  I don’t think that I have completely figured out how to deal with it to this day.  So much has changed for me in the past couple years.  It kills me that it has been a couple years since my favorite summer and start of senior year.  I truly am happy right now, at least in every sense, I should be.  I heard recently that happiness isn’t a destination, but rather a sense of being.  You shouldn’t be striving for happiness, but let yourself simply be happy where you are.  That is, if you can be.  And if you are just not in a happy time in your life, that’s okay.  Everyone goes through emotions, and you don’t have to be defined by one.

inadequacy

The feeling of inadequacy is

real

and hard

and undeniable

and heavy

and shameful

and real.

But, it is true

and shows us how we are.

s.storrer

Good Thoughts

Just a Haiku

Oh, so much beauty

and wonder is nothing but

a brief glimpse of Him.

S.Storrer

Psalm 90

Some days we just need a little encouragement, something to pick us up out of the gloom that threatens to choke us.  Today is one of those days for me.  I've noticed that the points in my life when I tend to be the most sad or depressed are the points at which I am most focused on myself.  This is not always true, but I am an expert in throwing myself pity-parties.  So, this morning, when I started thinking those thoughts that seem to love to run around in my head, I turned to the Word instead.  I found myself in Psalm 90 as I flipped it open.  It was one of those times where I found just what I needed.

"Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, 

that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days.

Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us,

for as many years as we have seen trouble.

May your deeds be shown to your servants,

your splendor to their children.

May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us;

establish the work of our hands for us-

yes, establish the work of our hands."

Psalm 90:14-17